Long time since we spoke...

Today I felt like speaking and it's mostly because I'm so sad.
I'm hanging on to GOD and we know HE is a comfort but it will not change what's going on.

My 36 year old is getting closer to death, many know the struggles that have been occurring and you've been kind. She's fully aware that it's not good, she's crying out to GOD and trying to hang on to him.

Sarah did come up for Thanksgiving, she had gotten a ride up here to Midland through inviting a friend we all know. It was good to see her...her friend did some real stunts that I'll explain some other time. Unfortunately Sarah spent most of her time in the bathroom from vomiting because the ulcers are so bad she cannot control herself.

This morning I woke up to my cell phone beeping telling me I missed a message, as I looked I saw it was Sarah at 2:25am saying, "I know it's late but it's very much a must that you know my life would not be worth living nor worth the fight if it weren't for you.".

I called her and you could hear her vomiting and trying to hide it. I'm hungry to help and can't.

GOD, ABBA FATHER we need a miracle.